Urgh. I’ve been feeling some anxiety today mixed in with a feeling of just being socially awkward (and like a total looser).
Today I couldn’t help but looking back at my content (my version of happy) days/moments and feel like I was looking back at me being drunk. This anxious, gross, hopeless place feels like sobriety to me. I seriously was thinking “Oh my god how embarrassing. I was actually trying to be social, optimistic, and easy-going.”