Surrender

I’ve heard that what we haven’t healed will resurface in order to be healed. I suppose it’s just that we keep making the same choices until we learn different. I suppose we are just broken records.
I don’t know if what needs to be healed ever goes away completely. Maybe it just gets less painful as time and learning pass. Maybe it comes back just as strong in times of vulnerability.
My job continues to push me into being present in my life. It keeps bringing up old wounds of not being heard and being bullied. I am forced to act on my behalf and reach out for help. I know this is good for me and it’s also stressful and anxiety provoking.
I have reached a sort of surrender, as much surrender as I can allow myself. I will do what I can and let go of what I can’t.

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