A Deeper Call to Being Child-Free

I knew from the age of 4 that I did not want to have children. "I'm going to have puppies!" was my declaration every time someone imposed their kid-wanting assumptions on me (when I was just a kid myself. Why do people do that?). Throughout my childhood, I didn't like dolls and preferred stuffed animals.... Continue Reading →


Shame Relapse

It's safe to say that most of my life has been lived from a pessimistic viewpoint.  Glass half-full was my default and Murphy’s Law governed my outlook. I strongly believed that optimistic people were living in a fantasy world and sorely needing a swift kick in the ass from reality. My ever increasing depression and... Continue Reading →

Growing Edges and Traps

Over the last few weeks, I have been sitting with and working through a growing edge about my subconscious set-up where, no mater what I do, I always end up wrong. At first, I knew it's was a growing edge because I didn't have the words to describe what I was facing. I get fleeting clarity, but... Continue Reading →

Day 3: Bitch Explored

During Day 3 of the "Rise Up Break Through - Blast Off 2015" workshop, we practiced Circling, "an organic, in-the-moment interpersonal process". During one of our Circling exercises, a few people reflected to me that I have a very grounding presence. I found this curious as, during the weeks leading up to the event, a few people also mentioned... Continue Reading →

Day 2: Envy

Early in Day 2 of the "Rise Up Break Through - Blast Off 2015" workshop, we explored the passions of each enneagram type. According to the Enneagram Institute, "The Passions represent an underlying emotional response to reality created by the loss of contact with our Essential nature." At best, each passion is a misguided coping strategy that... Continue Reading →

Day 1: “You Want Me to WHAT?!?!”

Our Alchemist group has gone through two rounds of Enneagram and Shadow/Light workshops. This time around we were in a much bigger group at the "Rise Up Break Through - Blast Off 2015" event.  Some people were new to the concepts being presented; others are well seasoned in this work and leaders in their fields, and everyone else was somewhere in... Continue Reading →

“Get Over it Already!”

In the first half of 2010, I was in the depths of my depression and anxiety. I was on a leave of absence from work, having consistent suicidal thoughts, inert, had no appetite, and prone to fits of spontaneous crying. I was receiving counseling, medication management, going for daily walks, receiving care from a naturopathic doctor,... Continue Reading →

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